Anyone else have a hard time with this?
Heck ya. It isn't the funnest thing in the world. And I am about as lazy as they come.
It's nice when you can just afford to have employees do it for you. But I've handed out tens of thousands myself too over the years. Not because I wanted to, mind you. But because we needed the jobs and money. Funny how things like that will motivate you to do things you don't want to do....