yeah i know man. this is my 3rd year and i just wish things were growing faster than they are. stupid economy BS and everything i'm surprised any of us can do anything anymore. i'm just wondering you know if you ever in reality get to that place that you dream about getting to or if it's all just a mirage. i've never caught a break in my life. i just wish for once i could. tired of trying and getting my hopes up only to get them crushed. it's like an ongoing endless saga. i mean what's the point of dreaming if it never becomes reality? it's just all pretty worthless at this point.