I consider myself pritty tough. At 43 Im able to work circles around the younger collage guys I hire (of coarse Im $$$ motivated) and mentally & emotionally tough as well, however this time two years ago I unexpectedly lost my mom to a major stoke. Her birthday is also in April just after she passed. Then this time last year my dad passed after some time suffering with parkinsons. We were close & he was a giving person. My wife, 4 kids and I would visit him in the nursing home the last 9 monthes of his life and he always offered the kids his snacks that freinds & family brought for him (all he had left in this world). Rite now Im working solo becouse my helpers start may 10th. Got to tell ya, while mowing solo, I have too much time to think and a couple times latelly Ive been getting all choked up & teary eyed. I think its normal greiving process to miss them this time of year. When their passing was "fresh" Of coarse I was very sad, but handled every thing well, however having a year and two to miss them is tough as well. I miss never being able to call them or get in a car and see them. Now it seems I can be working all day and never see a customer, but as soon as a song comes across on my peltiers that reminds me of ol times with them and I get choked up, there comes a customer all in my face. Of coarse its my job so I deal with it and hope they dont think Im wacked or something. Yesterday one of my favorite customers aproched me. She just happend to be the lady that relayed to me the message of my mom from my wife (no cell phone here) so she knows the story. She also knew my dad. She is the whittiest lady on earth & I think she realizes My "dealings". She always has a funny story. Yesterday she was telling me about her knee operation she had & at theropy she was riding a stationary bike when the pedal broke off and the crank smacked her rite in the knee. This lady is a millionaire many X over, but so down to earth its unreal. Every visit she compliments my work, every christmas she sends a gift, every payment includes "Thanks!" in the memo. Ill get over my "dealings" in time as we all do, but customers like that is what makes our job seem so much easier & pleasent to do.