I sit here reading posts by newbies, and am amazed at the enthusiam that they have. They are excited because their customer told them that "the neighbor wants some work done as well", or they are excited that they "got the job". I've been doing this for about 13 or so years, and after reading these posts, feel that I have lost the spark. I don't have the enthusiam that I once had. I can bid a job, and not really care if I get it or not. I rarely go out and look at a job, and come home hoping that I get it. THey are all the same to me anymore. I can remember the day when a blinking voice mail incicator had butterflies in my stomache, hoping that it would be a customer calling, or the call saying that I "won the bid". Now, when I see that same blinking light, I am actually hoping that it is not someone wanting something. I can remember the day that I would go out extra early, and wash the trucks; I didn't want to be on the road with a dirty rig, but now, it really doesn't matter what the trucks look like. I can remember the days of purchasing a new piece of equipment, and awating delivery of it. Those were exciting times. I'd lay awake at night, thinking of what, and how I could use it. I can remember trying the thing out on my own lawn first, just for fun. Now, it is like buying a loaf of bread. I've covered many aspects of the business as well, from strictly residential mowing, to large commercial contracts, maintenance and installation. I've also been from a part time one man show, up to a multi vechile, employeed operation. I guess what I am asking is how can I get that spark back? I've thought of leaving the trade all together, and going the 9 to 5 route, as well as starting up something on my own, totally different from the green thing. There does not seem to be a clear answer. Any ideas, thoughts, comments... P.S. This didn't just come on all of a sudden, I have had these feelings for some time now.